Just a few years ago I could not have even imagined this life. There were no pictures in my head. My heart desired, however, my mind could not dream. A few years ago I couldn’t have imagined both the exhaustion and the joy. The laughter and the tears.
I could not imagine vacuuming the floor with a baby on my hip. I never dreamed I would be dancing around the dining room singing a song about letting the poop slide out. My mind could not picture having a baby strapped to me and a toddler at the counter eager to help make dinner.
I never saw the long nights of waking every hour for a restless infant. I didn’t know the earthquake my body would feel at birth. I could not dream of the tears I would cry or the prayers I would whisper.
I didn’t know how my heart would ache and swell with love. I never saw it coming even though it was a desire, a desire hidden in the depths of my heart.
I do not know where you are at in your mothering journey. Maybe your heart and arms are yet aching to hold a baby of your own. Maybe you are a new mom exhausted and overwhelmed. Maybe you are in the teen years crying out for help wondering if God is listening. Maybe you feel like your mothering journey is closing as your children are having babies of their own.
While I am only a few years into this journey. While I am inexperienced I do feel God whispering in my heart. Whispering courage, faith, love, endurance.
I fail often. I mess up daily. I say things I want to take back. I push my children with expectation. I start the day without even a prayer. I rush to complete and forget to see the moment I am in. The teachable moment God is giving. I cry instead of laugh sometimes. And I am too exhausted to cherish my husband after the kids go to bed.
I fail as a mom. I mess up. But I hear grace. I feel grace. Just a few years ago I didn’t know the power of GRACE like this. I could not have imagined how God would change my heart in the miracle of life!
God has more grace than we can imagine. God has more strength for you as a mom than you can dream of. You are the mom God has chosen for your children. You are it; you are the best for them! And therefore God will give grace. Grace for the gift you hold in your arms, in your heart.
2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. NIV
James 4:6 But He gives more grace. Therefore He says: “God resists the proud, But gives grace to the humble.” NKJV
2 Peter 1:2 May God give you more and more grace and peace as you grow in your knowledge of God and Jesus our Lord. NLT