As a new mom I am often overwhelmed by wanting to “do everything right.” I want to feed my daughter the right foods, be consistent, have constructive and creative play time, encourage independence, love unconditionally, and the list goes on. The millions of thoughts that pour in throughout the day can be down right exhausting. If I stop and think too much I become disabled and that helps no one. Not my daughter, husband, or myself.
So, it was one of those days…thoughts everywhere…and I am at the grocery store. I am cruising up and down the aisles. I have a list, but my daughter has decided its the best entertainment. I shop. Trying to gather all the ingredients for our family this week as well as the care meals I am making and oh yeah, what are we having for our company this weekend? Not only are there running lists in my brain I am also conscious that my daughter is in need of a nap and my stomach is roaring as it is well passed lunch time.
I make it to the check out lane. The cashier tells me the number and my insides flip at the amount. I thought I was just getting a few groceries! I swipe my card despite my inner sirens blaring. I have always hated spending money. With my hands back on the cart I push towards the double automatic doors.
Then…something amazing…my 8 month old places one of her chubby little hands on each of mine. I stop. Look down. She is grinning, the widest smile.
Wow! I melt, and realize…its all okay. God is here. He is speaking through her touch. And His message I hear. ” I love you. Its okay. Let go. I AM in control.”
More and more I am realizing its the little moments. The smiles and touches that matter, that carry us through, give us perspective.
The little moments are where God speaks the loudest. If I am not careful I will miss it, miss HIM. When I give in to the millions of thoughts flooding in I can not hear Him. I won’t hear Him speaking. The power of the still moments, the gentle touches that bring us back to living; the living God has for us.
Psalm 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!