Right now she is one. However, she won’t be one forever. Some days feel long. Some days are overwhelmed by needs. Some days I wonder, “why did I want to be a mommy? Am I really cut out for this?”
She is one. While the days are long and it feels like a lifetime I also realize it is a blink. The bathroom door will not always fly open just because she wants to be near me. My lap won’t always feel big yet comforting. One day her little fingers will no longer touch my face in exploration. Some day she will be older. She will have a life of her own. One day my little girl won’t be crying for a banana. She will not be on my living room floor throwing arms and legs in every direction. One day our lives will look very different.
This is natural. Growing up. Moving out from our mother’s gentle and guiding arms. Part of a God designed processed. Maturing. Each blooming into their own beautiful flower.
I do look forward to watching my daughter bloom. What God has for her. Yet even in these long, draining days, I want to hold her closer…freeze the sweet moments.
While, as mothers, it is part of our job to let go I also believe holding close is sometimes needed too. Our hearts are full of both. It is in trusting God that we learn when each is needed.
Trusting God in every stage, every season of life. The ups and downs. The letting go and holding close. Believing that He ultimately has the best in mind for each and every soul.
God is our greatest teacher in motherhood. Steady, constant while life roars around us. It is okay. It is good to trust Him. Trust Him in the letting go and holding close.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. ESV
Psalm 62:8 O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge. NLT
Isaiah 26:4-5 You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord God is an everlasting rock. ESV