Have you ever had a day where everything around you is beautiful, sun shining, your children playing happily yet something deep inside feels broken? Like your heart is seeping and you can’t find the source?
70 degrees outside in late February, something that usually gives me a burst of energy. However, on this day the heart is breaking…wide open. Pieces falling and I don’t have the answers. Why? What is causing this? I want to run, hide, escape.
While my heart and soul desire to run I know that is not the answer. I know I must sit. Be with the pain. Putting the pieces of a broken heart back together takes work, examination. It takes a humbling before my Almighty God.
This breaking. This pain is telling my something. Just like the pain from a scraped up knee, burn, cut, etc. Pain warns that something needs attention. Likewise, this breaking in my heart is telling me, shouting for me to notice. To notice something isn’t right in my heart, in my soul.
Days fly up. The constant flow, pressure keeps us all busy. Jumping from one task to the next whether we are stay-at-home mommas, working ladies, or retired women. We all feel the rush of life. The needs, the wants, the must haves, and must dos flood our minds daily and in all that rushing flow our hearts suffer. A lack of time and attention. A lack of care and nurture.
Our needs change as we grow, as seasons of life move. One need remains…always. Our need, our heart and soul need for intimacy with our Creator. Even if we go to church faithfully. Even if we pray and read the Bible we can still be neglecting this great, deep need.
So even when life seems aligned. Or you have that home, that job, those children there is always something greater, something deeper we need.
Breaking heart. Pieces falling. Aching pain.
Jesus waiting. Jesus patient. Jesus ready.
Next time you find your heart breaking stop rushing and be with your Creator. Further, every day, break the pattern of daily task and be with Jesus. Let your heart and soul needs be filled. A neglected wound becomes infected. A neglected heart becomes infected.
Philippians 4:19 And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus. ESV
Hebrews 4:16 So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most. NLT
Psalm 139: 23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting! ESV