Many times I have prayed asking God to help me walk like Christ. To be humble and compassionate. Yet why am I surprised every time? Every time God does exactly that. Keeps me humble. Gives me another opportunity to have compassion and empathy.
I have had two cysts on my head for more than 10 years. Over the last couple of years, they have grown larger and larger. One, in particular, was becoming sensitive. Wearing my hair up often bothered it. Somehow, I would manage to bang my head right on that bump again and again. My husband was afraid to even snuggle my head after I got aggravated when he hit my bump!
I was more and more self-conscious of them becoming exposed due to hair follicles being spread out across the bump.
Recently, I had them removed. I was already being humbled by their presence but after their removal, I was humbled again. I never had a head wound before. It was definitely unlike any other wound I had had. It was tender and even hurt to laugh. The four staples across the top of my head turned my stomach for the first few days.
I had let these two cysts make me feel ugly. I had allowed two bumps to make me feel insecure, devalued, and less than beautiful.
Have you ever allowed what you view as imperfection bring you down?
Have you ever turned an experience God meant for humbling into a pride and self-worth battle?
I think we all have. I think we have all taken our eyes off the spiritual and eternal and focused rather on carnal and temporary.
The process of humility does not bring out feelings of worthlessness. God will never make us feel worthless because He thinks we are worthy. Worth so much that He sent His son to die.
Humility will not make us feel ugly because God does not create ugly. In Genesis, after everything He had made God said it was good.
Humility will not make us insecure but quite the opposite. A humble heart draws closer to God where we will always find security and rest.
After getting myself out of the way I could see God shaping my heart and drawing me to Himself through two bumps on the top of my head.
What is God using in your life right now to draw you closer to Him?
What is God using in your life to bring you into a process of true humility?
James 4:6 And he gives grace generously. As the Scriptures say, “God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble.”NLT
James 4:10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and He will lift you up. NKJV
Galatians 2:20 My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. NLT
Genesis 1:27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. NIV
Genesis 1:31a God saw all that he had made, and it was very good…NIV