Body tense, temperature raised, aggravated. Yes, this is what I feel. What I feel when perspective is off. When I am wearing dark blue sunglasses instead of God’s goggles.
Everything looks gray. Everything feels bad, failure. The meal will be a total flop, my daughter will cry and we will have to leave early, the drive will be long, I won’t have time for x, y, or z, I won’t get better in time and we will have to cancel, something will come up with work and we won’t be able to go…
These are just a few of the senarios that have run through my brain in the last few months. Can you relate? Do you see the failure, mishap, and rejection first? Do you feel the bad before you can even look for the good? I know I do all too often.
My dear husband, reminds me over and over. Reminds me that is wasn’t horrible. That everything didn’t fail. He reminds me of the good. He helps me see God, see the little miracles, see that God is good.
Even when my circumstances aren’t “my ideal”. Even when things look gray…there is always color, beauty.
I know it is difficult to take off the blue glasses. To see passed the frustration. Sometimes I just want to sit in my disappointment. But why? Why do I torture myself so when I can live in the miracle? When I can have joy!
Yes, look passed the planner (whether written or mental). Look beyond the weeds and see the one yellow flower blooming. Isn’t it beautiful? Doesn’t it remind you of God’s faithfulness. God has been with you before…He will be with you again and again! That is God’s promise.
Psalm 31:5 I entrust my spirit into your hand. Rescue me, Lord, for you are a faithful God. NLT
Hebrews 11:6 And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. ESV
Psalm 26:3 For your steadfast love is before my eyes, and I walk in your faithfulness. ESV
1 Thessalonians 5:18 in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you. NKJV
Psalm 75:1 We thank you, O God! We give thanks because you are near. People everywhere tell of your wonderful deeds. NLT
Psalm 31:5 speaks to my heart. It is an act of my will to entrust my spirit into His hand – surrender, letting go of what I want to do and how I want to do it. Only then, can God rescue me from myself.