Have you ever watched a toddler? As they walk around a room still getting used to the feet that carry them. Repeatedly, again and again, they fall. With each fall, up again.
At first, my daughter would cry with each fall. Fear and insecurity gripped her in the beginning. With time her perspective changed. Until one day the falls were no longer earth shattering. A fall became another opportunity. Another opportunity to get back up again. To walk again, try again.
I am amazed. Amazed at her resilience. The number of times she falls in a day exceeds my fingers and toes yet she continues to get back up. If I fell that much I think I would give up. Grow weary with walking.
I have felt this way spiritual at times. The same lesson, again and again. I thought I learned it the first time. However, here I am again. I look up to God and cry. “Why am I here again? Why didn’t I learn this well the first time? I am sorry.” In my heart, I feel Him. Peace. It is okay to be here again. This time, the learning will reach deeper. Deeper into the heart, making a way for change, conforming. A conforming into Christ’s image and likeness.
Falls are a part of life. Falls do not mean we are a failure. Falls don’t mean we are a disappointment. Falls are part of life. Falls teach us. Teach us to be better walkers. Better walkers in HIM.
Romans 12:2 Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. ESV
Colossians 1:10 So as to walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, fully pleasing to him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God. ESV
Romans 12:2 reminds that spending time daily in His word, renews my mind and that the testing of my faith is not for God to see where the motivation of my heart is but for me to understand my selfish choices. God already knew. Yes, I do fall down by neglecting my quiet time with God but He is faithful to pick me back up, and remind me why I have a bad attitude and where my daily strength comes from.