Why is it so hard to tell the truth? Why do we throw up a smile and act as if everything is okay? Why do we hold it together like everyone has it all when the reality known is we are all a mess? Why are we afraid of our imperfections, mistakes, and sins when the God of the universe knows it all already? Why do we try to hide when we are fully seen by the One who created us and loves us?
It is okay to be a mess. It is okay to hurt and cry. It’s okay to tell the truth because the only way to live in freedom is to let go. Our Creator already paid the price so we can let go. His Son died that we may walk in peace and freedom.
The enemy wants us locked up. The enemy wants us to believe we are isolated, a failure, too far gone, and a disgrace.
That is not truth. Satan is referred to as the father of lies. But our Creator and Father is Truth. And Truth says we are loved. We are valuable. We are worth dying for.
I have tried to hide behind a face these last few months. I am weary. Not from one catastrophic event but from all the small daily things.
I am a momma to three beautiful children. I am a wife to an amazing, caring husband. Yet I am a mess. Some days it takes all I have to keep my tears in.
Many days I lose it and yell at my kids. I don’t know how to handle the stress my husband brings home from work. My dad has brain cancer and it breaks my heart. My baby screams as I make every meal while my head aches. My girls fight and scream over toys and I am weary of mediating every spat. I struggle with body image and most days feel less than beautiful. Rejection has a deep root in me and if I am not careful I find myself lost in its grips. I am an overcomer, but that does not mean I never have a weak moment.
I am messed up and broken. However, I refuse to believe that is all I am. I have an Abba Father who sees me through my toughest days. I have a God who knows the outcome of my dad’s cancer. I have a Savior who gives my family joy and laughter even in the midst of my husband’s stressful workdays. I have a Holy Spirit that helps me stop and breathe when my children are screaming and misbehaving.
Do I get it right every moment? Absolutely not! However, there is grace extended. My awareness of my imperfections and shortcomings lead me to my Saviour. As long as my spirit remains humble He is always willing to listen and aide. He is always in love with me no matter what kind of day I am having.
It is okay to admit your struggles and dark days. It’s okay because you have a Father in Heaven who can take it. Nothing is too messed up for Him. He has seen it all…and you know what? He still undoubtedly loves you! You may be messed up and broken, but it doesn’t end there. You are fully seen and deeply loved.
Stop right here, right now and say this: I am fully seen and deeply loved by my Creator and Saviour!
Breathe, my friend. Take a deep breath and bathe in the Truth. Let the Truth rest in your weary heart, soul, and body.
You can let go. You can tell Him every struggle, every failure, every fear. Because you are loved unconditionally. You are wanted. God wants you not a fake verse of surface perfection.
It is okay to be transparent with Truth. It is okay to be vulnerable with Love.
The intimacy we long for is in the freedom of letting the truth be told.
1 John 3:1 See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are! The reason the world does not know us is that it did not know him. NIV
1 John 4:18 Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid, it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced his perfect love. NLT
John 1:14 And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we have seen his glory, glory as of the only Son from the Father, full of grace and truth. ESV
John 8:31-32 Jesus said to the people who believed in him, “You are truly my disciples if you remain faithful to my teachings. And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.” NLT
John 14:6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.” NIV