Day number 3. I am laying on the couch, fatigued, empty. My body beat down from the inside out. 

The night before I tried eating a “normal” meal and got wiped out. Back to the very first day. 

Furious. I have two little girls to care for I can’t be sitting on the couch. Angry. A breastfeeding momma doesn’t have the time and energy to be sick. Irritated. My husband has work to do he can’t be looking after us 3. Frustrated. Biting into another piece of plain ‘ole boring toast.

Day 3 turns into 4 and now I am broken. Crying out for deliverance. 

But who am I? Who am I to say what I have time for? Who am I that I think I can control such situations?

Day 4. Finally, I see. I need to accept. Accept my body is fragile. Accept that I am not in control. Accept that sometimes toast and bananas at every meal is what is best for me. 

Day 4. I let go. I give my frustration, irritation and anger to God. I give Him permission to do a work, a great work in my heart. 

Day 5. The heart is soft and moldable. Hands are open. Tummy is settled. 

It is in the letting go of our pride and circumstances that God can do a mighty work, a healing. In a place of surrender, He is magnified. 

What situation are you facing today? Why are you frustrated, irritated or angry? Do you need to let go? It is not easy however, it is necessary for the healing to begin. Reach out to Him. He will meet you there. 

Colossians 3:2  Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. ESV

Philippians 4:6-7  Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. NIV

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble. NLT

Isaiah 55:8-9 “My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the Lord. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts. NLT

Proverbs 3:5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding NKJV